DAY 277: I FEEL GUILTY

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It’s been 277 days since I quit my job. Up until now, I’ve been sharing my journey on my personal Facebook page and occasionally on my Instagram stories, that run out in 24 hours. Currently, I’m on the beach in Cancun typing away feeling an extreme sense of guilt? Why? I’m not a milllionaire. I spent money on leaving the country that could’ve been allocated for bills! However, I recognized I’m being a bit hard on myself.

I’ve been working since I was 12. Before leaving my job, I worked for a big corporation for over a decade. I never had a problem with taking a vacation or girls trip when I was working for someone else. However, I can’t help but wonder why as an entrepreneur, I in a way, feel like I don’t deserve to be here. In the last 9 months, I’ve probably worked harder professionally than I have my whole life. While I still continue to work through my insecurities, here’s how I’ve been able to somewhat reconcile my decision to get away.

 1. Self-Care Is Important

People scream the importance of “Self Care” from the mountain tops, but how often do we do it? More specifically how often do women take advantage of it, especially women of color? We DONT! Since becoming an entrepreneur, I work at least 60 hours a week. I don’t get full nights of sleep. I take naps. LOL. Seriously, not okay. For the last few days, I slept on the beach while being burned to a crisp. It was fucking beautiful! Don’t worry I used suntan lotion.

2.  You Deserve To Enjoy The Fruits of Your Labor

Did I mention I’ve been working since I was 12? Yup! 12! My first job was working at a daycare and braiding hair. 20+ years later with carpel tunnel, I shouldn’t feel bad about getting away with my girls for a few days…ok more like two weeks, but who’s counting?

3. Make It Worth Your While

For the second half of my trip, I’m actually crashing a business conference with one of my good friends. Yup! I’m going rogue and yes I have business cards in tow! Don’t judge me. I’m also using this time to tackle 18 in 2018 goal list. I need to complete A LOT by the end of the year..like BLOGGING 18 TIMES! Lol. I already did 8 (on my vegan blog www.flyfitvegan.com), I have 10 to go. This post is one of the 10. PROGRESS!

4.  Experiences Are Priceless

I’ve traveled with the same core group all over the world. It’s always fun to tell stories from previous trip, like the my bestie almost beat down the cab driver for trying to steal her Hello Kitty Card case (Nope, I’m not making this up). It’s even more fun to create new experiences that will be discussed on the next trip. So instead spending $1200 scuffing up the bottom of some red-bottom shoes, I’ve rationalized the purchase of a trip instead. (Not shading those who do spend money on shoes and bags. The older I get, the more that shit just doesn’t matter to me anymore)

5.  Work Can Wait

Seriously, work will always be there soon enough. I have a sewing machine and a huge stock pile of fabric waiting for me when I get home. The upcoming holiday season will be my busiest of the year. My 60 hour work weeks will soon be 80 hour work weeks. Work can wait! I will not be a millionaire overnight. There is no point in my attempting to rush the process.

The point of this post is not to encourage you being an irresponsible, non-Bill paying, adult. The intent is quite the opposite. My point is the responsibly take care of your mental well-being before you end up on someone’s stretcher in a mental institution..or worse. And as I work on letting this guilt of mine go, I hope it inspires someone out there to do the same.

Until next time…

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4 thoughts on “DAY 277: I FEEL GUILTY

  1. I felt empowered reading this! I’m not an entrepreneur, but as a Mother I find myself feeling guilty about Lazy Saturdays. Taking an extra-long lunch just to take a nap in my car or go for a run. Thank you for your transparency!

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